Restless

[ellarien]

I've been restless, lately -- not discontented with the fundamentals of my life, but ready to make changes in the superficial things. I've bought an MP3 player -- not an iAnything, I hasten to add -- and I'm seriously wondering about getting a cheap pay-as-you-go apology for a mobile phone, just for emergencies. I bought more new clothes this fall than I usually do, and more new bookshelves, enough to trigger a wholesale reorganization of the study and bedroom that's still in progress. I'm on the point of purging piles of boxes and junk, and I'm not entirely sure how far that's going to go before the end. Time to part with the box the vacuum cleaner came in? Time to get rid of some very old clothes I hardly wear any more? (That's a tough one. I mostly hang onto clothes until they're so out of date and shabby that no thrift store would want them, but it goes against the grain to put things in the garbage that aren't in holes or hopelessly stained.) Time to find a better home for the five-year-old desktop computer I barely use, and maybe get a wireless print server instead?

I just have to remember that it isn't, in the end, the possessions that matter. Still, it probably wouldn't hurt to pay a little more attention to the things around me, for once, if only to dust and tidy and iron so that I don't feel embarrassed asking for someone to come in and light the furnace.